discern2learn
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Its hard to put into words but I shall try 
Before I found faith in jesus ,on the outside my life looked ok but inside I was fighting a battle a battle what became a war in my mind.
For years I suffered with several spiritual attacks through out the day.
Some of the things are to bad to even mention but I fought the evil thoughts internally so 9 times out of 10 I won.
But then night comes ....
The dreams, the night terrors, the sleep paralysis.
The fear, the anger, the pain .
I was in fear to sleep knowing that I was gonna get attacked I got to a point where I was fighting in my spirit and even killed in my sleep .
I was pulled apart all limbs torn off I felt helpless.
After years of this happening I just put it down to general nightmares.
While in lockdown I saw a video on YouTube from speakers corner and a guy was doing a sermon on deliverance and said if your under attack repent to jesus and ask for forgiveness and that stayed in my mind,well as the weeks go on I kept getting little signs but i just blew them off or they just went over my head and life took over. Looking back now I can see them clearly.
Ain't god great.
So we get to 2024 still watching the speakers corners videos every Sunday and i have a basic knowledge of Christianity from just watching the videos.
I was working at my local hospital and was using the bus rather than driving.
So while waiting for the bus everyday I decided to download the bible app.
I got stuck in ,as Im reading i got drawn in to the point where I wasn't bothered if the bus was late .
after a couple off weeks of reading afew passages a day.
Bare in mind iv not read a book since iv left school.
Then i went thru the biggest spiritual battle iv ever faced, weeks of attacks waking up at 3am every night full of fear not being able to move .
night after night not wanting to sleep then going to work tired and run down I was lucky if I got 4 hours sleep .
The last night it happened I was woken again at 3am frozen in place whole body sweating I could only move my eyes.
A demon was stood on my chest like he had conquered me.
I was fed up with it all
Internally I cried out to jesus I ask for forgiveness and repented for the all the bad i had done and in that moment like a click of a finger.
i was released and was filled with warmth and joy I was weaping tears of comfort and peace.
Thankyou jesus.
I gained alot that night the main thing for me that jesus gave me that night was peace and hope.
Peace of mind is something iv never experienced before and to be honest its taken me some to get used to.
My life has changed so much for the better i became a member of the church last February before then i was reading my bible and watching alot of online sermons,i wanted to go church but felt daft about it then i get a phone call from my long time school friend dave who told me he had also has found his faith in jesus and that blew me away I spoke about going to church and he invited me as his mum already attends and iv not looked back since.
I was baptised in the river trent in October and truly feel like iv got a new heart.
and I thank the lord for that,
i felt defeated and jesus raised me up with him to victory.
Since that night I was saved by jesus i haven't suffered any night terrors and my sleep has improved so much .
I pray every evening and morning and thank jesus for it all .
My discernment ,knowledge and understanding have gone thru the roof.
Iv had visions and dreams.
Especially on murdy Thursday i had a great vision from the holy spirit in the church i attend it was amazing.
I consider myself as a spiritual warrior for christ and we need to remember its a spiritual battle and
if we aint engaging we are losing.
We all have free will and I choose gods will.
Satans army is out here with flaming arrows and them flaming arrows are evil thoughts and bad intentions not of god. So
Pick up your bible and read the word .
arm yourself.
the word of God is the truth.
dont forget as
Ephesians 6:10-18 says
10 Finally, be strong in the Lord and in the strength of his might.
11 Put on the whole armor of God, that you may be able to stand against the schemes of the devil.
12 For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the cosmic powers over this present darkness, against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly places.
13 Therefore take up the whole armor of God, that you may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand firm.
14 Stand therefore, having fastened on the belt of truth,
and having put on the breastplate of righteousness,
15 and, as shoes for your feet, having put on the readiness given by the gospel of peace.
16 In all circumstances take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming darts of the evil one;
17 and take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God, 18 praying at all times in the Spirit, with all prayer and supplication.
So put the armour of god on
and stand firm with the lord
The battle is won thanks to jesus.
Amen.
Before I found faith in jesus ,on the outside my life looked ok but inside I was fighting a battle a battle what became a war in my mind.
For years I suffered with several spiritual attacks through out the day.
Some of the things are to bad to even mention but I fought the evil thoughts internally so 9 times out of 10 I won.
But then night comes ....
The dreams, the night terrors, the sleep paralysis.
The fear, the anger, the pain .
I was in fear to sleep knowing that I was gonna get attacked I got to a point where I was fighting in my spirit and even killed in my sleep .
I was pulled apart all limbs torn off I felt helpless.
After years of this happening I just put it down to general nightmares.
While in lockdown I saw a video on YouTube from speakers corner and a guy was doing a sermon on deliverance and said if your under attack repent to jesus and ask for forgiveness and that stayed in my mind,well as the weeks go on I kept getting little signs but i just blew them off or they just went over my head and life took over. Looking back now I can see them clearly.
Ain't god great.
So we get to 2024 still watching the speakers corners videos every Sunday and i have a basic knowledge of Christianity from just watching the videos.
I was working at my local hospital and was using the bus rather than driving.
So while waiting for the bus everyday I decided to download the bible app.
I got stuck in ,as Im reading i got drawn in to the point where I wasn't bothered if the bus was late .
after a couple off weeks of reading afew passages a day.
Bare in mind iv not read a book since iv left school.
Then i went thru the biggest spiritual battle iv ever faced, weeks of attacks waking up at 3am every night full of fear not being able to move .
night after night not wanting to sleep then going to work tired and run down I was lucky if I got 4 hours sleep .
The last night it happened I was woken again at 3am frozen in place whole body sweating I could only move my eyes.
A demon was stood on my chest like he had conquered me.
I was fed up with it all
Internally I cried out to jesus I ask for forgiveness and repented for the all the bad i had done and in that moment like a click of a finger.
i was released and was filled with warmth and joy I was weaping tears of comfort and peace.
Thankyou jesus.
I gained alot that night the main thing for me that jesus gave me that night was peace and hope.
Peace of mind is something iv never experienced before and to be honest its taken me some to get used to.
My life has changed so much for the better i became a member of the church last February before then i was reading my bible and watching alot of online sermons,i wanted to go church but felt daft about it then i get a phone call from my long time school friend dave who told me he had also has found his faith in jesus and that blew me away I spoke about going to church and he invited me as his mum already attends and iv not looked back since.
I was baptised in the river trent in October and truly feel like iv got a new heart.
and I thank the lord for that,
i felt defeated and jesus raised me up with him to victory.
Since that night I was saved by jesus i haven't suffered any night terrors and my sleep has improved so much .
I pray every evening and morning and thank jesus for it all .
My discernment ,knowledge and understanding have gone thru the roof.
Iv had visions and dreams.
Especially on murdy Thursday i had a great vision from the holy spirit in the church i attend it was amazing.
I consider myself as a spiritual warrior for christ and we need to remember its a spiritual battle and
if we aint engaging we are losing.
We all have free will and I choose gods will.
Satans army is out here with flaming arrows and them flaming arrows are evil thoughts and bad intentions not of god. So
Pick up your bible and read the word .
arm yourself.
the word of God is the truth.
dont forget as
Ephesians 6:10-18 says
10 Finally, be strong in the Lord and in the strength of his might.
11 Put on the whole armor of God, that you may be able to stand against the schemes of the devil.
12 For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the cosmic powers over this present darkness, against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly places.
13 Therefore take up the whole armor of God, that you may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand firm.
14 Stand therefore, having fastened on the belt of truth,
and having put on the breastplate of righteousness,
15 and, as shoes for your feet, having put on the readiness given by the gospel of peace.
16 In all circumstances take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming darts of the evil one;
17 and take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God, 18 praying at all times in the Spirit, with all prayer and supplication.
So put the armour of god on
and stand firm with the lord
The battle is won thanks to jesus.
Amen.
